Moves in Curves

I uploaded that dinosaur video yesterday, and YouTube popped up a video in the “more like this” column that I had put up last year from their 4th birthday. And it was so odd to watch it and think it was only a year ago, because our paradigm has shifted so much since then. They were silent. The only word either of them spoke in the video was a garbled “Mama”. C signed a few times in the video, and otherwise they were silent. It jolted my heart to watch it. I listen to them now and worry about their pronunciation, they’re still so distorted, leaving out final consonants, and certain sounds are very hard for them to make, but they talk. They have a huge vocabulary. They talk in paragraphs. They lecture me. It’s wonderful. It’s such a huge change in just a year. It lets a little of the tension out of my personal cloud of motherly worry to see that change, and it gives me hope that they will get there one day. I want to try to remember this huge explosion of communication they’ve had in the last year whenever I feel panicky about their future, wrap it up in my heart and keep it close, something to give me hope.